The Path

I am totally sure that each musician, artist, have already gotten desperately lost inside his art. Lost between possibilities, validation, confidence, lost between the balance between a "normal" stable work and the artistic doubtful work.

For many and many times in my life, I have gone through it. I am a multi-artist and it has its heaven and hell. Since I was a child, I have been lost between all my arts. Dance, painting, theatre, writing, music. And inside each of them, endless possibilities and challenges. For many time in my life, I feel like I am totally divided and not fully good at anything. Hopefully, I could understand that it is not a problem, just a path, and like any path, it carries gains and losses.

Surely, If I had chosen one single art, I would have boosted it by putting all my efforts in that direction. But how about the beauty and creativity of the other arts? The learnings? The experiences? Oh goodness, how grateful I am for have experiencing so many arts in my life. I might not be a virtuous dancer or painter or actress or writer or pianist or singer or guitar player; but each of them made who I am.

Even inside music, I feel lost. Between my work as a songwriter and as an interpreter. Between the instruments that I play and all that I want to play. Between tones and styles. Between my perfectionist struggling my progression. Lost.

There is a Portuguese song from Oswaldo Montenegro(Metade) that says:

"May the art points us an answer, and may nobody tries to complicate it, because art needs simplicity to bloom."

Today I deeply understand it. Art needs to flow. And flow is movement. Get lost is part of the process of seeking. We just need to keep rocking.